Malam tadi aku tak boleh tidur gak. Dah tiga malam kot. Aku dah lupa perasaan tidur/bangun tidur macam mana. Pagi tadi, around pukul5,aku..sedih gila. Bila aku dah burst out, aku akan mula feel. Aku nak nangis sangat-sangat waktu tu. Sebab aku suka jadi ignorance dengan perasaan aku sendiri sebab bila aku rasa,aku..jadi macam pagi tadi lah.

Desperate, aku capai mp3, aku sumbat telinga dengan earpump. Malam yang panas, macam dalam sauna. Aku pilih lagu - start dengan Lifehouse. Bila-bila aku nak nangis, aku akan pasang lagu-lagu lama diorang.

-How can I stand here and not be moved by you?

-In your name, i found meaning..so I'm holding on. I'm barely holding on to you.

-missed how the sunshine would light up your face,I missed all the little things. yeah I missed you. Yeah I missed you..

those are some of the part of the songs which i sung quite loud whenever it came to that verse, and cried violently, literally.

and this song, lagu yang paling-paling aku rasa nak pecah dada bila dengar.

Whatever It Takes - Lifehouse

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know

Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down

And if you give me a chance
Believe it, I can change
I'll keep us together
Whatever it takes

She said, "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside, even though it hurts"
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see
She said, "Like it or not, it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down

And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together
I know you deserve much better

Remember the time I told you the way that I felt
And that I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down

And if you give me a chance
Believe it, I can change
I'll keep us together
Whatever it takes

Aku menangis, aku jujur je dengan diri aku. And last-last, aku tertidur.