At least, I feel like my old self again. Back to when I was 16. Back to before things started to go crazy. Back to before I do crazy things just to prove that I was right.

Thanks to Allah. He granted my wish 2 years ago. Now, I have to start everything all over again. If I were to ask from where, I know now just where.

Like I said, back to when I was 16.

I'll take baby steps, one at a time. I know, it'll take me 2 years to completely neutralize everything. Mistakes made so to be a reminder, heartbreak happens, just to prove that I'm a human, just a human, normal human being, after all. 

To be cheated and cheating, I call that now fair and square.

I know I was wrong, I know this is fate. Well, I tend to believe that mistakes that I did, as part of my fate. And this fate, Allah knows what's the best for me. He always knows.

I never feel any better than I am now. In a way, i feel happy to feel this way again. To feel like my old self again.

Thank goodness, I love you Allah.

A great thanks to You. Really.

And I know this is not going to be easy. The deep feeling of sadness and emptiness, well, that's the greatest challenge.

And to fight against myself, that's my battle now. And what happens after this, I just hoped that I won't make any stupid mistakes any longer. 

May my future self thank me.